This Side of Paradise
by Jennifer-Oksana and Ryo Sen
Summary: A sex change without the surgery– fun with Mulder and Scully.
Disclaimer: 1013 and MFAC, those Masters of the Universe, own X-Files.
I wake up all of the sudden as if out of a bad dream and into a much
worse one. Someone’s hand is resting on my thigh. It’s a male hand. I
open my eyes. Dear God, it’s Mulder’s hand.
What is Mulder’s hand doing on my thigh? I frantically race through the
events that happened last night– I went home, ate dinner, watched a bad
TV movie, read a little, and went to bed. A boring Friday night. But
Mulder was not involved for one minute in this scenario. My memory of
events also doesn’t explain why I have a blistering hangover and the
oddest feelings running through my body. But first things first, Mulder
doesn’t have any right to have his hand on my thigh so casually, like I
What the hell? What the hell? I moved to brush his hand off my thigh,
but it’s his hand that moves. I blink a few times. Something’s
definitely not right here. I try looking at my thigh. It’s a little
hairy for mine. I trace Mulder’s hand up to the shoulder. It’s attached
Something is very, very wrong here. From all evidence, I appear to be a
white male, mid-thirties, with a hangover. In fact, a very specific
white male, by the name of Fox William Mulder, when last night I very
clearly remember being a very specific white female named Dana Katherine
Scully. I stand. I look around. I look down.
Okay. I’ve got my partner’s hangover and my partner’s morning hard-on.
This really, really sucks. My mouth– his mouth– tastes like an open
sewer. And he’s dirty and unshaven– where the hell did he go last
“Dammit, what’s going on?” I ask aloud. Yep, that’s Mulder’s voice.
Geez, how do men handle this– okay, Dana, let’s think. What’s really
unappealing to you? Got it– Frohike wearing a thong. A fake fur
thong. Yikes. Okay, that helps.
Mulder smells bad. He needs a shower, a shave, and jeez, let’s brush his
teeth here. Yes, first things first, Mulder has hellacious morning
breath, and gee, what a way to discover it. Firsthand.
Then the thought comes to me: where the hell is my body, and who’s
wearing it for me? And seconds later, the logical answer, ding ding
ding– Mulder. This gives me quite a scare– the thought of Mr. Mulder
free rein over my body is not–
Oh. Oh man. I just realized– heh. Heh heh heh. It’s that time of the
month. Mulder’s going to have to deal with– I double over and just
start laughing my ass off. This is a dreadfully unfunny situation,
but… Mulder. With cramps. Mulder. Dealing with tampons. Mulder. On the
Okay, so maybe there is one small plus to this. I try to stop grinning
as I go for the toothbrush, but I can’t help it. Okay, plus two– I can
put this lovely male specimen into some decent clothes, without any help
his lovely male fashion sense.
The bright light eventually breaks through an odd dream involving tic
tacs and teacups to wake me. Without opening my eyes, I flip over in
the bed, burrowing my face into the pillow.
I jump to full consciousness. I don’t sleep in a bed. Okay, the odds are
that I’m in someone else’s. The sixty-thousand dollar question is: Whose
My senses report no indication of a bedmate. Reluctantly, I peel my
eyes open only to find my view oddly obscured by some sort of reddish
stripe.I swipe at my eyes with an unusually small hand and brush back
offending lock of red hair.
A very familiar nightstand in a very familiar room stares back at me.
Before I can panic about the implications of waking up in Dana Scully’s
bed, I realize I’ve awoken in her body.
I sit up abruptly, only to freeze at the alien sensation of
Scully’s–my?– unbound breasts swaying with the movement. I swallow
hard. So, that’s what they feel like.
As the sheet and comforter fall away from my– her? our?– torso, I
glance down at the simple white tank top Scully wore to bed. The
scooped neck of the skimpy shirt gives me an unprecedented eyeful of my
partner’s decolletage, and I gape shamelessly.
God, her breasts are fucking amazing.
I manage to tear my eyes from her breasts when I feel this odd twinge in
my abdomen. No, a bit lower. Very odd place for a muscle spasm–
My train of thought derails abruptly when I realize that besides the
tank top, Scully’s body is clad only in panties.
There is a deity.
Shoving the blankets away, I stare at Scully’s thighs, memorizing the
sight of her pale body. They’re sensible panties, of course, but made of
a dark blue fabric with a faint, magical sheen. The tiny scrap of
fabric somehow manages to tantalize as it serves its mundane purpose.
The shrill ring of Scully’s bedside phone startles me from my lustful
contemplation of my partner’s assets. Guiltily, I haul the discarded
covers over her body before reaching for the phone.
In my own body, I could’ve touched the phone without even straightening
my arm completely, but Scully’s petite frame is another matter
entirely. I have no idea how the woman can even reach a kitchen
counter–her torso makes a 45-degree angle with the mattress before her
tiny hand closes over the receiver.
I bring the phone to my ear and, out of habit, answer, “Mulder.” My
name comes out in my usual staccato syllables, but it’s her throaty alto
that I hear. Belatedly, I realize my mistake and add, “Is that you?”
A pause, then my own voice– Is this how I sound to the world? Like a
robotic drone with a hint of laryngitis?– answers, “Yes.”
Before I can answer, Scully speaks again in my voice.
“What the fuck is going on?”
“I don’t know, Scully–er, Mulder–er, Scully,” he says in my voice.
This is just bizarre. It’s worse than hearing your voice on a tape
recorder! I mean, I know he’s using his particular voice rhythms and
all, but I can’t sound like that, it would be just plain fucked up.
“Well, okay. So what does the situation appear to suggest to you?” I
“I’ve died and gone to heaven,” he replies.
“Mulder!” I snap. “Would this appear to be some sort of body switch
situation to you?”
There is a pause on the other end. “Yes. Do you have a clue on how it
“No. But you, small white woman with red hair on the other end of the
phone, you remember being a guy named Fox Mulder yesterday, don’t you?
I mean, this isn’t mutual insanity, right? I remember that my body
wasn’t nearly so rank yesterday.”
“Okay, yeah. I was Mulder yesterday. Or at least I thought so. And this
is too contrived to be a coincidence. So, let’s assume it’s true.”
“Okay. So what are we going to do?”
“When did I become the expert on body switching?” he asks in an edgy
voice. Ooh, I do sound like a bitch when I’m pissed off, don’t I?
“I don’t think you’re an expert, Mulder,” I say, trying to be soothing.
“I just wondered if you had a game plan or were you too busy admiring
There is an embarrassed silence. Gotcha. Not like you wouldn’t expect
Mulder to examine the merchandise when he’s finally got a chance to see
it close-up, but he’s also enough of a gentleman to feel ashamed about
“You break my body, I break your face, okay? Oh, and by the way,
“What?” he asks, and the sound of my voice makes me chuckle a little.
“Do you have pains in your abdomen?” I ask. That’s awkward, but how else
am I supposed to say it?
“As a matter of fact, it feels like someone’s stuck a fucking knife in
my stomach and is getting kicks twisting it slowly,” he replies.
“Well, Mulder, that is what we women call cramps. It’s not exactly my
fault, but I– that is to say my body I–am on my period. Tampons are in
the cupboard under the sink. I’m pretty sure you can handle it. If not–
well, try not to ruin all my underwear, okay?” I ask.
“Scu-lleeeeeeeee!” he protests in a high-pitched whine.
“Call you back later, you need a shower,” I say, and hang up. Then I
burst out laughing. I don’t know if it’s the fact I’m in a male body or
what, but I am being mean today. Oh, well. Time for the shower.
I strip off the stinking, nasty garments Mulder wore to bed last night
and start up the water. This whole new perspective thing’s a bitch. I
mean, it’s not the male thing, it’s the fact I’m seeing the world from
instead of five foot two. Plus, Mulder is gangly. Awkward. If I were
him, I’d have perpetual vertigo.
Ahh, Head and Shoulders– I’m finding out all sorts of things about my
partner today. Like he needs to take a good trip to a Wal-Mart and
stock up on supplies. Like his morning breath tastes like rotten cheese
Heineken. Like he’s actually pretty muscular for such a lean man–okay.
So I fantasize a little about Mulder. I also fantasize about Sean
Connery, Brad Pitt, and this really cute guy I see around the FBI every
I think his name’s George or something. I do have a pulse, sue me.
The question presents itself: I’m wearing Mulder’s body on a Saturday
What exactly do I intend to do with it? I mean, I did have a date with
my mom to go antiquing today– ooh. This whole deal keeps getting better
and better. An almost infinite amount of torture for Mulder– and he
thought he just got to look down my shirt.
When I *finally* get free reign over the utterly luscious body of one
Dana Katherine Scully, *why* in God’s name do I have to be introduced so
rudely to the intricacies and indignities of the female reproductive
cycle? Welcome to my life.
Have I mentioned that blood makes me nauseous? Green about the gills?
Absolutely fucking ill? And if it’s Scully’s blood…
I better sit down.
Oh, yeah; I *am* sitting.
With a frustrated sigh, I wait for my head to clear, then tentatively
take to my feet. Scully’s feet. Whatever. God, having breasts is the
strangest feeling. The slightest movement and they just jiggle all over
the place. Very disconcerting. In a thoroughly sexual way, of course.
Wow, the world is strange from this height. I pause and glance around
Scully’s bedroom. It looks like I’m still sitting down. She’s barely
tall enough to reach the damn bureau! My stomach twists again, more
forcefully this time, and I turn purposefully to the bedroom door.
Her bathroom is large and quite… well, girlie. Feminine. Lots of
little bottles of lotions and bath oils and a small bag of makeup. As
if I’ll have a *clue* how to begin to apply that. Her damn mole will
just have to
go uncovered today. It’s incredibly sexy anyway. I’ve never understood
her compulsion to slather cover-up all over it.
But, first things first. I’m reaching for her panties when it hits me.
Women do *not* urinate standing up. How inconvenient.
I turn around and hook my thumbs in the panties, then freeze. Wait a
Gaping at her breasts while they’re still technically covered by her
tank top is one thing. But, I’m about to get up close and personal with
I swallow hard.
Scully’s… primary sexual characteristics. If Scully can use science to
distance herself from sexual desire, so can I, dammit.
With that thought, I pull the panties down over her hips, my hands
grazing the soft skin as I uncover it. Closing my eyes tightly, I sit
down on the toilet and do what needs to be done.
Yet another cramp hits me, and I groan, remembering Scully’s vague
instructions. I open one eye a bit and glance towards the medicine
cabinet. Great. I can’t reach it from here. Well, *I* could reach it
here, but Scully’s puny little arms are just not going to bridge the
With a frustrated sigh, I sidle, duck-like, to the cabinet, panties
braced around my knees. I squint into the dark recesses of the cabinet.
Toilet bowl cleanser. Super-sized roll of Green Forest recycled toilet
There. Tampax. Forty tampons. Super tampons, whatever that means. I
fumble with the box until it opens, then retrieve a paper-wrapped tube.
I toss the box onto the sink, then waddle back to the toilet without
dropping the panties. I sink back onto the toilet seat and regard the
foreign object in my hand.
How the fuck does this thing work?
I suppose some sort of instruction manual is included with the box, but
I’m confident in my ability to conquer this little piece of cotton and
Okay. Tear here. I rip the end of the paper wrapper off. So far so
good. I assume that I pull this cardboard tube out–
I don’t know much about tampons, but I assume the damn things aren’t
supposed to be in two pieces when inserted.
I pull the other remaining piece from the wrapper and study it. A big
hunk of cotton with a tail stuffed inside of a cardboard tube. And
let’s not forget the empty tube that’s now resting comfortably behind
the toile where it rolled when I dropped it.
I want my penis.
Please tell me that is *not* a knock on the door.
Mulder is such a male slob. All of his clothes are dirty! This sucks!
I don’t want to do his laundry–though it looks like I’m going to have
to. I revolt. One load. And it’ll be of clothes *I* like him in, like
these wonderful jeans that give a nice view of his butt, and ah, yes,
t-shirt. Black t-shirt. I sit in his only clean pair of boxers, which I
bet one of the Gunmen gave him as a gag gift, and grin like a cat. For
some reason, I feel like re-enacting that scene where Tom Cruise skates
the room with his underwear–that was _Risky Business_, right? But no,
we get to do laundry. And we’re getting some food.
The phone rings. I wait, and then pick up.
“Hello?” I ask.
“Mulder, it’s Tyrone. Are you still on for today?” a rough male voice
“On for what?” I inquire cluelessly.
“Man, the three on three b-ball. You said it was gonna be you, me, and
Jamal. We were gonna kick ass and take names, bro. What, you have a hot
date with whatsherface, your good luck gal?”
“I don’t remember, man. I have a hangover,” I say, panicking. I don’t
know how to play basketball. I’m a tiny thing, when I tried to play in
high school PE I always got knocked ass over ankles. Of course, I made
up for it in soccer and field hockey.
“Oh, come on. Don’t tell me you chickening out, bro,” Tyrone says. I
sigh. What the hell. Mulder is big enough, and maybe his body knows
stuff. Beats the hell out of doing laundry and shopping for this big
“No. I’m coming to play, bro, and you better be prepared. How long
before I’m supposed to show up? And where’s it at, I forgot. This
hangover was a doozy.”
Tyrone snorts. “Mulder, you are one crazy bastard. Our first match-up
is in forty-five minutes, at King High School, all right? And Mulder,
don’t forget your lucky charm. You sound fucked up enough without
yourself by forgetting Lil’Red.”
“Of course I’ll remember. She keeps me winning, doesn’t she?” I ask
ironically. Lil’Red. One guess to who that is. “See you there.”
I hang up and call Mulder frantically. “Dana Scully’s residence,” my mom
“Mo–Mrs. Scully, could I please talk to Scully? Now?”
“Yeah, it’s me. Where is she?”
“She’s in the bathroom with girl problems, Fox.”
“She’ll talk to me. Knock and tell her it’s me and it’s urgent.”
My mom does as she’s told and within seconds, I’m on the phone to
“Thanks for mentioning I get to go antiquing with Mom,” he says
sarcastically. “What’s wrong?”
“I have to be at your three on three b-ball tournament in forty-five
minutes, you have neither food nor clean clothes, and what exactly is
Silence. “Well, Lil’Red is my lucky basketball charm. It’s in my
basketball bag; you’ll know her when you see her. By the way, the bag
is under the TV, okay? There are clean basketball clothes in the bag as
well. Feel free to feed my body whatever you please, but it likes high
concentrations of sugar and fat. Donuts are a boy’s best friend. By the
way, how the hell do you work these things?”
“Mulder, insert tab a into slot b. I know you can do it. And make sure
to remove the applicator.”
“Oh. Okay. Okay. Do you know the way?”
“Yes, I do,” I reply. “What if I suck it up today?”
“I’ll get heckled and driven from my basketball haunts and be no more a
man. But on the plus side, I do get to figure out the difference between
a credenza and a candelabra.”
“Mulder, please don’t do something too unspeakable. Remember, I love my
mother. I’d prefer to be on speaking terms with her. Don’t tell her
anything ludicrous, like I’m having a wild affair with you or Skinner or
“Check. Keep the Maggie/Dana relationship in check. What if she tells
me she’s having the wild affair with Skinner? Or Cancerman?”
“Call me immediately and don’t say anything to her except ‘Oh, that’s
nice..’ And don’t tease. Now I have to go get something to eat.”
I hang up, and find his bag. It’s New York Knicks–of course. I rustle
and find a key chain with my picture in it. It’s a good picture; my mom
must have given it to him. How cute. I check the bag to make sure that
I’m really Lil’Red, and when I’m convinced, put on the “clean” clothes.
Mulder and I have differing definitions on some things, and this is
definitely one of them. But I don’t have time to clean up. I dress,
lace up the shoes, find his wallet, and head out to get breakfast.
Donuts sound amazingly good.
Okay. This is fine. Really. Nothing’s wrong.
Oh, fuck me twice.
This tampon thing is *not* working out for me. I finally got one to
work correctly on my fourth try, but now it doesn’t feel quite…
right. The instructions claim you’re not supposed to be able to feel
the damn things!
This is not good.
With an exasperated sigh, I reach down and tug on the string. I drop
the tampon into the open toilet and watch balefully as it explodes to
twice its size in the water. “Fuck you,” I mumble as I flush.
Turning back to the box of tampons on the sink, I very nearly trip on
the pair of panties I’d discarded on the floor. The sight of Scully’s
naked body isn’t doing much for me anymore.
And even if it was, her mother’s presence in the living room should
preclude any lascivious thoughts on my part.
I grab another tampon–fifth time’s the charm, right?–and unwrap it.
Damn, but I’m getting good at this. I lean into this strange
half-crouch and deftly insert the tampon. I remove the applicator and
stand up cautiously.
Could it be…?
I shift my, uh, her hips a bit. I don’t feel a thing. I take a couple
of steps to be sure.
We have liftoff! Or insert.
I toss the cardboard applicator in the toilet and flush it with a
triumphant smirk. No problem. Now, shower time. I reach down and
strip Scully’s tank top from her body.
Almost forgot about her breasts. But, they are, in fact, unforgettable.
I steal a glance at her lush body in the mirror. Of course, she’s too
damn short to get the proper angle, so I can only see down to the tops
thighs. Which is still a mighty fine view.
Shit. I blush and grab the bathrobe of the back of the door. I don’t
know why, since I’m certainly not going to *open* the door for Scully’s
“Yes… mom?” It’s going to be tricky to remember to call her ‘mom’ all
“I don’t mean to rush you, but we’ve got to get on the road soon. I’m
not sure where Rose’s Garden of Antiques is.”
Rose’s Garden of Antiques?
Kill me now.
“I’m just going to take a really quick shower,” I answer, hoping my
voice doesn’t betray my trepidation. “Give me twenty minutes.”
“I’ll just have a cup of coffee, then.”
Okay. No more Scullygazing. Just a shower. What could possibly go wrong
with a shower?
With a jelly donut in my mouth, size 13 Nikes on my feet, and Lil’Red in
my bag, I realize I don’t look completely out of place when I cruise up
to the b-ball tournament. Slight problem. I have no bleepin’ clue who
Tyrone or Jamal is.
“Spooks! Babe!” someone bellows at me. I turn and look. A tall black
guy who I think I recognize from the Bureau nods. He looks like he’s
ready to play. I hope he’s on my team.
“What’s up?” I ask, trying to be cool.
“Me and Rick and Lopez are gonna kick your ass, Spooky,” the guy says.
“I seen your jump shot. You got no game.”
“Oh, I got no game,” I reply. “What do you got, man? Less than
nothin’? Two olives and a gherkin? I’ll watch you play, then I will
show you how to play.”
This is fun. Men don’t realize women know how to trash-talk. Just– yo
mama jokes aren’t nearly as funny when a woman says them. Besides, guys
get all defensive over it.
“Hey, it’s Mulder,” another man says. His dark eyes catch mine and roll
over the other guy. “Man, you got to tell me someday how you look so
good even when you smell bad and are hung over.”
“Tyrone, shut up and let’s see if Mulder’s up to playin,” the man next
to him says. Something in my stomach turns. Oh, God. Moment of truth.
I take the ball and dribble it. My usual difficulties, while not
gone, are less. I dribble for a moment or two, and make a few lay-ups.
From the look on Jamal’s face, he’s a little worried, but not to an
“Hung-over. What a day to do it, Mulder,” Tyrone says. “Why’d you go get
“No fuckin’ clue, man,” I reply honestly.
“It’s love, my brotha,” Jamal says. I don’t know what to say to that.
“You got no game, Spooky!” yells the same guy from the Bureau.
“Aw, fuck yourself, Action Jackson!” Tyrone replied. “Leo Jackson. He
think he all that and more. But he got nothin.”
“Well, let’s show him that,” I reply with a wicked grin. Yeah. I wanna
beat this guy. Sue me.
Tyrone and Jamal nod, and we step out on the court. I say another
little prayer. Please God, let me be able to play basketball. I want
to have game.
“I’m *sorry*, mom,” I repeat. Geez, if this is the flip side of the
Sainted Mrs. Scully, my partner can keep her mother. That
disappointed-slash-irritated look *stings*.
Mrs. Scully nods curtly and move ahead of me. She pops open the door to
her car–since when does Scully’s mother drive a Miata?– and gets in.
I wait for her to unlock my side, then settle into the car beside her.
Wow. Cool car. Of course, I’d never fit into it with *my* body.
“It’s fine, Dana,” she says as she shoves the key into the ignition and
twists it sharply.
Yeah. She’s as shitty at lying as her daughter. I sit in an
uncomfortable silence as Mrs. Scully pulls into traffic. Yikes.
Obviously, Scully did not learn her defensive driving techniques from
her speed-demon of a mother.
I’m at a complete loss. And I’m far too concerned with the tin can of a
car we’re in and its proximity to the sudden glut of Sport Utility
Vehicles out there to figure out how to apologize for taking an extra
hour to get Scully’s body ready for public viewing. Like I’m supposed
to know how to shave legs? Is it my fault one tiny little nick bled for
like twenty minutes?
Scully’s going to kick my ass.
And then there’s the whole chick routine: Hair. Makeup. Complicated
articles of clothing. Just give me a jockstrap and an occasional shave,
and I’m fine.
The Miata careens into a parking lot, and I glance up. Oh, look. It’s
Rose’s Garden of Antiques. Wonderful. I hold in that long-suffering sigh
that Scully does so well and glance over at Mrs. Scully.
After pulling the key from the ignition, she turns to me and gives me a
beatific smile. “I’m so glad you agreed to this, Dana,” she says, her
Um… have I stepped into a space-time anomaly? I thought this woman
wanted to rip my balls off– well, metaphorical balls, given the
situation– ten minutes ago, and now she’s beaming at me.
“Yeah,” I answer lamely. At the slight furrowing of her eyebrows, I
hastily add, “I’ve been looking forward to this all week.”
“Great,” she says brightly. “Let’s go.”
I pull myself slowly out of the car and turn to face the small
building. The roof is listing to one side, the sign is homemade and
faded, and the front windows showcase an amazingly large collection
Perfect. Scully’s ruining my reputation on the court, and I’m stuck
antiquing in some hellhole. Just fucking perfect.
I got game.
I know that this is the most pathetic of all triumphs ever, but it was
incredible. Mulder’s body just took over, all the instincts and talent
hidden in this long, lanky, and sensually male frame bursting out,
pushed by my stubborn short desire to win a game of basketball for once
in my life. It was beautiful. Tyrone and Jamal were thrilled.
Of course there was that ridiculous little ritual they had me perform
before each game. I had to kiss Lil’Red. Yeah. I know. But apparently,
Mulder does it before every game. So I kissed my own picture and
strutted out on the court to play. And I strutted, oh yes. Mulder is
meant to strut.
I only committed one really deliberate personal foul during the whole
affair. Yes, I am embarrassed as hell to admit it, but I elbowed Action
Leo Jackson in the gut. But I had good reason! Good fucking reason! Not
only had he trash-talked me before I even got on the court, but then he
had the unmitigated gall to disrespect me. I don’t care whether or not
Mulder would have pulled the medieval chivalric bullshit of defending
lady’s honor, but no one is going to dis me to my face and get away with
Ice Queen my ass!
So we didn’t win the tournament or anything, but I preserved Mulder’s
male honor. He can still play ball without being taunted or being “no
more a man” or any of that testosterone fueled bullshit. Tyrone, Jamal,
and I had a celebratory double bacon cheeseburger. Then I begged off and
went home. I smelled bad, my clothes were still fucking filthy, and I
needed to talk to Mulder. So I went back to his apartment and
immediately stuck a load of clothes in the washing machine. On the way
back up, I ran into her.
Five foot ten inches and one hundred and twenty pounds of big breasted
“Fox!” she cried. “Hi! It’s me, Marlene!”
“Marlene,” I said in a voice that I hoped conveyed ‘get the hell away
from me’ in a polite way. “Hey.”
“You never got back to me about dinner! Come on, Fox, I insist.”
“Uh– Marlene, that’s very nice of you, but no. I’m really busy.”
Marlene’s perfect face took on a sulky look. “Fine. Whatever.”
She sidled past me and I ran the rest of the way back to Mulder’s
apartment and straight into a hot shower. Good girl, er, boy, er good
Dana. Of course now that I’m in the shower and underneath all those
clothes, Mulder is indeed naked, I may be in trouble. I’m not confused
or awkward in this body anymore. I know how it feels, how it moves, how
it might be in an athletic activity that *ain’t* basketball.
God, I need a cold shower.
Somehow I make it out of the shower sane and towel off for the second
time in Mulder’s body. I find some dirty clothes and hurry back down to
the laundry room. Clothes into the dryer, up to the apartment. When
those clothes get done, I will finally get to put Mulder in those tight
jeans and black t-shirt that I’ve been craving for all damned day.
But what will I do all dressed up and nowhere to go? A devilish grin
crosses Mulder’s face. Dinner and a movie, Ms. Scully? I do want to see
how the big fat dork handled my body for today anyhow. And after the
antiquing venture, I’m sure he’ll accept my offer if I tell him we’re
going to go see _Gone With the Wind_.
Somebody get me the fuck out of here.
If I see one more chipped Flintstones jelly glass, I will not be
responsible for my actions. Mrs. Scully has accumulated a remarkably
tasteful collection of items to buy, but she seems a little perturbed
my inability to find any bargains.
I am not a bargain-hunter. I’m a grab-whatever’s-on-the-shelf kind of
guy. Girl. Whatever.
But, there is nothing here to grab. Unfortunately, there *is* a very
annoying man who seems to be following me around the piles of crap.
“Dana, look at this!” Scully’s mother exclaims.
I take a deep breath and hope I’m not making that sourpuss face of
Scully’s. Mrs. Scully is holding up a delicate blown-glass cat
figurine. It looks like something my great aunt Faye would display on
windowsill. I force a smile.
Mrs. Scully gives me a questioning look as I reach her side. “Do you
think Tara would like this?”
It takes me a minute, but I make the connection. Tara. As in Bill Jr.’s
wife. His Stepford Wife from hell. Forcing a smile, I nod.
Scully’s mother pats my arm. “Okay, honey. Let me just check out.”
She wanders towards the counter, and I stare at an incredibly large
collection of 45s marked ten cents each. Apparently, some idiots are
still willing to *pay* for records. Unbelievable.
The creepy guy slithers up to me, pretending–badly, I might add–to be
interested in a really ugly red glass shoe. He glances over at me,
I’m not amused. I’ve seen that look before–hell, I’ve *done* that look
before–and I know he’s lusting after my body. Well, Scully’s body.
“Hi,” he says, his voice alarmingly high-pitched. One hand smooths
what’s left of his hair as he gives me an eerie smile. “Any good
I shoot him a cold look. “I think I saw You Don’t Own Me in there
somewhere,” I answer, deadpan.
He laughs, an odd hacking sound, and moves closer, holding out his
hand. “You’re funny, and I’m Ed Presley, no relation,” he adds with a
Reluctantly, I shake his hand. Disgusting! His palm is sweaty, and he
barely even squeezes my hand. Then, his name registers. What *is* it
with guys named Ed having the hots for Scully?
“Nice to meet you,” I answer sweetly. “I’m late.”
Ignoring the sputtering from Ed, I make a beeline for the exit. I’ll
just wait in the car.
“Mulder, it’s me,” I say in his voice. “We did fairly well in the game
today. Remind me to kick the crap out of that Agent Jackson next time we
run across him.”
“Got it. What sort of crap was he talking this time?”
“Ice Queen. By the way, Mulder, I love your elbows. They’re excellent
for gouging,” I tell him sardonically.
“Thank you, madame. So why did you call? Is there another evil woman
ritual I have to go through today? I spent the day with your mother,
cramps are a big ball of wrong, I don’t understand it but it really does
take that long for a woman to get ready, and I keep having cravings for
“You want to have dinner over at your place and then go to the movies?
Compare days?” I ask. “I’m ordering in Chinese and buying beer and maybe
we can rent a video if you’re not up to a movie.”
I hear his long sigh of relief. “You are a goddess, Agent Scully.”
“Shh! Mulder! If my mom’s around, she’s going to be confused. And you
sound really– gay– right now, and my mom might try to find some nice
lesbian to fix me up with.”
Mulder bursts into laughter. I like that sound. I wonder why I don’t
laugh more often. It sounds downright sexy in a cute sort of way, even
though it’s really creepy to be turned on by your own laugh.
“I love your mom. She can’t drive, but she’s great. So, be at your place
“I will be waiting, Mulder,” I reply. “Remember, you have to change
tampons or you ruin my underwear. And then you’ll have to pay to replace
Mulder makes this little sound I’ve never heard from my throat before.
It sounds like– well, I can’t describe it, but it’s really pathetic.
“Okay, okay,” he whines. “See ya later.”
He hangs up and I lounge back on the couch. An evil grin crosses my
face. Oh, what I’m going to do to you, Agent Mulder in Scully’s
clothing. But first I’m going to get dressed and do your hair. I have to
look good, after all.
I hang up the phone and feel what can only be a shit-eating grin on my
face. I do believe the Enigmatic Agent Scully has just initiated an
evening with distinct date-like qualities. Guess I’d better get her
I head for her bedroom, but make a very necessary pit stop in the
bathroom. Geez, her bladder must be the size of a marble. I only had one
glass of iced tea with my burger–which, by the way, gained me some odd
looks from Mrs. Scully–and I feel like I’m about to burst.
And, of course, I’ve got to change the tampon. Luckily, I manage it on
the first try this time and give myself a satisfied grin in the mirror.
Now, what to put on this hot little body for the evening?
I crack my knuckles and approach the closet. This should be
Suit. Suit. Suit. Suit. Geez, how boring. Does she even *own* any
Wait just one moment.
“Well, well, well, Agent Scully,” I mumble. “What have we here?”
I pull out a shimmery shirt and stare at it. It’s a really deep reddish
color, short, and tiny. It’s got to be tight on her. I hold it up to my
Stops at her midriff. I think we’ve got a winner. I yank the t-shirt
I’m wearing over my head, then shimmy into the maroon shirt. It fits
like a second skin, and feels unbelievably sexy.
I glance in the mirror and am instantly impressed. The scoop neckline
reveals *just* enough, the fabric clings alluringly, and the contrast
between the dark fabric and the pale skin of her navel is startling, and
“If Frohike could see you now…” I tell the mirror, smirking.
“Actually,” I add with a grimace. “I don’t even want to think about what
Frohike would do.”
Sadly, the tan pants I chose earlier are just *not* going to make the
I return to the closet. She’s got to have some black pants or something
stashed away in here. Oooh, even better. Underneath some neatly folded
pants, I find a pair of worn jeans. Comfortably worn.
I change quickly, and the jeans are a perfect compliment to the shirt–
fitted, but not skin tight. They are also low-slung, leaving her belly
button visible. I twist in front of the mirror, and, yes, the top of
her tattoo just peeks out above the waistline.
“Nice job, Agent Mulder,” I congratulate myself. Now, shoes.
I glance at the floor of the closet and am horrified to see what can
only be described as a shitload of shoes.
With a sigh, I drop to my knees. I knew it couldn’t possibly be that
I cannot believe what he put me in. The pervert! The nerve! What is it
with Mulder that he has to find the pair of pants I despise– they make
my ass look enormous– and then pair it with a flimsy little bimbo
wannabe t-shirt I bought on an outing with a few girlfriends. It’s made
for a cute undergrad, skintight, belly-revealing, and thoroughly
unprofessional. At least he didn’t stick me in a miniskirt and heels.
Maybe he thought it was cool.
“What the hell did you dress me in?” I ask anyway.
“I was going to ask you the same thing. Since when am I an extra for
“You look good in this. I look like a Calvin Klein model wannabe.”
“You look young in this. Adventurous. I liked it when I found it in your
closet. I especially liked the purple Doc Martens.”
“Those aren’t mine,” I lie. He lifts an eyebrow and I realize I must
look a bit silly, doing that so often. Well, maybe if Mulder weren’t so
full of shit all the time… “So, dude looks like a lady, are you
“Starving. Did you remember chocolate?”
“Mulder, I’ve been a woman most of my life. Of course I remembered
He smiles, and I notice I smell very good. Oh, this is just too weird. I
know I’ve got the hots for Mulder, Mulder’s body has the hots for mine,
but me in Mulder’s body finds it sickening to be turned on by my slim
form before me. It’s like a really sick version of masturbation.
“Good. I’m hungry.”
He licks those lips, and my head swims a little. Snap out of it, Dana!
This is getting stranger by the minute. How am I going to deal with
“Well, let’s get the Chinese, hey?” I stall, hurrying for the kitchen.
Good plan. Food as diversion.
Of course, this will all go to hell when we try to figure out what to
watch tonight, but for now, I’m fine with it.
I dig into my Kung Pao chicken with a vengeance. Anything to distract me
from her–my?–lanky body in that outfit. There has got to be some sick,
twisted reference to this in Freud somewhere. I have never actually
wanted to fuck *myself*.
I’ve never been real conceited about my looks, mostly because I could
only see my huge nose, my weak chin, and that damn mole. It very well
could be the outfit, but from where I’m sitting right now, I am a damn
Of course, it’s probably just Scully’s body reacting to me. My body,
whatever. That’s entirely possible. But, if the blank look she’s got
on my face is any indication, the sight of Scully’s tight little body in
this get up is doing less than nothing for her.
Great. Story of my life. When I’m in my rightful body, I want Scully.
When I’m in Scully’s, I want my own body. This is just sick.
And, of course, Scully, in all her incarnations, could care less about
me. Sexually speaking. I mean, she probably shouldn’t get turned on by
her own body–Oh, *fuck* it!
“So, Scully,” I ask, a tinge of desperation in my voice. “How’s your
A-ha! I saw that! While I was speaking, her eyes dropped to my lips.
Her lips. ARGH! Whatever. It appears the unshakable Agent Scully might
just be having the same gender identification problems as me. Yes!
“Pretty good, Mulder,” she answers, and it’s like watching myself in a
mirror. Then, she licks that pouty lower lip, and it’s *nothing* like
watching myself in the mirror. She catches it, and gives me a slow
smile. A smile I recognize. That’s my most convincing fuck-me smile.
Oh, dear. I fervently hope Scully’s and my first sexual experience is
not going to be while we’re in the wrong bodies.
She leans my body closer, her eyes burning into me. “Actually,” she
amends, her voice lowering. “It’s quite tasty. And I’m really hungry.”
I swallow hard.
Suddenly, I don’t care if we’re in the wrong bodies. All I know is that
I want that one.
This is wrong, this is wrong, I repeat over and over to myself. My pulse
is speeding up, my mouth is dry and yeah, I’m getting aroused. This is
so bad. But God help me, I want him. Her. Mulder!
“Want a bite of mine?” I ask. Mulder blinks at me with those baby blues
and I suddenly realize my jeans are a little tight.
“Close your eyes and open your mouth,” I offer.
Mulder immediately shoots me one of my personal favorite looks– yeah,
right, buddy. I grin.
“What’s wrong, Mulder, don’t you trust me?”
“I trust you, Scully, just not that male body you happen to be in right
I put some broccoli beef on my fork and lift it toward my mouth. “Here,”
I offer. “Take a bite.”
Mulder accepts, and he-she-whatever looks really sexy doing that. And I
know it’s sick and wrong and bad, but after Mulder finishes, I lean in
and kiss him in my own body. So much for self restraint, because no
matter what the weird value is on this experience, it’s a kiss.
My lips are soft and salty, tasting of soy and dinner and lipstick. It’s
sexy and my tongue sweeps out and presses against teeth. Mulder is very
obliging, and soon I’m out of air. I break the kiss.
“Mulder?” I ask.
“You know this is really sick, don’t you?”
“Do you want to stop?”
“Hell, no,” he replies. We start kissing again, lips and faces and
necks–god damn, it doesn’t matter if he’s in his body or not, Mulder
can use his mouth to his advantage. Then I feel a little hand reach for
the breast that’s not there. And stop.
“Shit,” I hear myself mutter. “This just–”
“What?” I ask. My jeans are a lot tighter now, and it’s taking a lot of
self-control not to pull Mulder in my lap and get that shirt off of him.
“The creepiness level is rising on this,” he groans. “I think we should
“WHAT?” I ask. I look at him in utter shock. “Now? Mulderrrrrr–”
I very reluctantly pull away from my *own* body, which I now desperately
want to unclothe. Glancing up at her– which is weird in itself– to
find my own hazel eyes staring back at me, I cringe. Apparently The Look
jumped bodies with her. “Uh, Scully?”
“What, Mulder?” she asks, my rough voice impatient and a tad
“We can’t do this,” I answer regretfully. As much as I want
her–regardless of whose body she’s wearing– I’d never quite pictured
our first time to be in the midst of an actual, for real, documentable
Scully stares at me for a long moment, then effortlessly produces that
smirk that has taken me years to perfect. With a pointed glance towards
her lap– well, technically, my lap– she whispers, “Trust me, Mulder,
this body is quite able.”
I groan and pull away. “Not like this, Scully. We should,” I pause,
waving her small hand in the air in confusion. “Wait 24 hours. See if
it goes away.”
The smirk transforms itself into a scowl. “Mulder, this isn’t the flu,”
she replies, exasperated. I hope I’ve never given her that disgusted
look; it’s brutal.
“I know that,” I answer sharply, sticking her full bottom lip out into a
pout. I don’t think it has quite the same effect as when I do it in my
*own* body, but I do what I can.
Scully rises, towering over me in that lanky body. I realize suddenly
how much smaller she is than me. It’s quite strange that she can be so
formidable in a body this size. The note of panic in her voice brings
me back to the present.
“How do you know we’re not *stuck* like this?” she asks, eyes wide. I
recognize the expression–it’s my panicky,
Maybe it has something to do with being inside of Scully’s body, but I
feel oddly rational. Unusually so. I stand and touch my own bicep with
a tiny hand. “We were both asleep when this happened,” I answer. “Maybe
that’s the key.”
Scully, locked in my body, studies me for a moment. She keeps my face
utterly expressionless, and I’m even more clued out than usual to her
thought processes. Finally, she nodded softly. “So what do you
Slowly, I let a grin surface and cock one eyebrow. “In the interests of
science, I must ask you to sleep with me tonight.”
“Right,” Scully rolls her eyes, but the small smile on her lips matches
my own. “In the interests of science.”
“All right, Mulder,” I say in a gruff voice. “But what bed are we
sleeping in? You use the couch, as I recall. And that’s rather small for
two to just sleep in.”
“We’ll go to your place. You have a big bed. Plenty of room for you
and me,” Mulder says, Ms. Cool.
“Okay. So we’ll go to my place, have a nice long nap, and wake up as
“Only if God is Kafka,” Mulder replies.
“Mulder,” I say in his deep voice. “Do you know how silly that sounded?
And that your- well, my- ass looks enormous in those jeans?”
“Scully, um, nothing about you is enormous. I think,” and he cranes my
neck around, “Your ass looks quite sexy in these jeans.”
“Sure fine whatever, Mulder. Let’s go back to my place, because
whomever I wake up tomorrow, your ass is mine.”
Mulder smiles that “good God, I’m a damned sexy man” smile, and slips
his arm around me.
“That sounds like a deal to me.”
The clock radio goes off. “This is Lisa Tricatello with National Public
Radio at seven thirty on this Sunday morning, and next is a special
program with John Gillnitz of the National Academy of Cultural Arts
discussing the state of American folklore today.”
I roll over. Onto somebody else. I rub my eyes, and try to remember last
night. Last night- last-
“Mulder?” I ask. My voice is high again. “Mulder, wake up.”
“But I’m naked!” Mulder cries. Unfortunately, he’s not. But I don’t
think he’s quite awake either.
“Mulder,” I say, leaning over him and tracing a finger down his cheek.
His hazel eyes snap open. “Did I pass the test?” he asks.
He looks at me and blinks. “Oh, it’s you. I’m sorry, I was having a
dream about a bunch of bikers in pleather giving me a test about the
importance of George Lucas in American history.”
“And you were naked?”
“Hey,” Mulder says. “You’re a woman!”
“Congratulations on figuring that out,” I reply drily.
“I’m a man, then, aren’t I?” he asks in this pathetically eager voice.
“I’m a doctor, I think I should be able to figure it out,” I reply. I
lift the sheets, and look–with clinical detachment, of course–at
what’s tenting those obnoxious ‘Ghostbusters’ boxers someone must have
bought him as a gag gift.
“What’s the diagnosis?” Mulder asks.
“You’re wearing too many clothes,” I reply, popping out from under the
“And I’m not a cockroach?”
“I guess God’s not Kafka, Mulder,” I say, kissing him in a very serious
way. “And let me remind you, your ass is still mine, but-”
“But?” Mulder asks, looking like a kid in a candy store.
“I need to go to the bathroom. I’ll be right back.”
As I run for the restroom, I hear Mulder say, “Cramps are a bitch. I
don’t know how you women put up with that shit. If I knew anything
about it, I’d find a way to abolish them.”
“It’s so not-sexy to hear you say that, Mulder.”
“Well, sexy, why don’t you get back here and I’ll show you about what
else I learned during my day as a woman?” he drawls as I take care of
“Oh, look who knows so much after one day in a woman’s body,” I reply,
jumping back into bed. He kisses me, and his hands are everywhere.
“Is that a good mmm or a bad mmm?”
“It’s a keep going mmm,” I reply. Well, maybe he has learned something
from yesterday’s aberrant experience.
If not, I’m certainly willing to teach him.